Look, despite how I reacted, and what I said and did we're okay. From my end of things. I get it. Caroline explained what happened. I was angry and an evil warlord decided to get inside my head and take advantage of that. You're never going to be my favorite person but Elena cares about you. And you may be one of the only people who can help us bring your brother back.
Look, I haven't told anybody this and it's been three months and nothing has gotten better. I don't know what Stefan is doing but I know when he's really from. He's not a ripper. He's from after Klaus gave him his humanity back. I think he's trying to stay in Klaus' back pocket, I don't, I don't know. He thinks he's keeping the peace but in three months Klaus hasn't once made a move against any of us.
If you need anything, I think I owe you a thousand times over. And I know it will take a long time to make it up to you. But, if you do ever need me I work in communications which is on the first deck. I'm sorry again, Damon.
You can save your apologies for someone who needs them. I'm just a little sick of all this timeline crap coming back to bite me in the ass.
[He's mostly just trying to forget about the whole thing, because it brings back memories of something that happened a long time ago that was much worse and went on for a lot longer.
So the topic of Stefan make it really easy to switch gears and hopefully steer the subject away from having to talk about it.]
If that's true, then he's supposed to be in full out revenge mode, which wasn't all that much better. I figured something like that might be up, if only because if he were completely off the rails, there'd be a trail of bodies by now. Instead I haven't even seen him.
Nope. Not even once. And that's not for lack of trying.
[Because this is Damon, and they're talking about his brother. Say what you want about him, but anyone who knew him? Who actually knew him? Knew damn well he'd be trying to find him and fix whatever stupid mess he'd gotten himself into, not matter how much he complained about it and pretended like it didn't bother him in the process.]
If I didn't know better, I'd guess I'm being deliberately avoided.
Stefan remembers everything he did when he had no humanity. This month is probably the month it all hit him. If he's hiding from you, then it's safe to say he's also hiding from what he's done. And probably Klaus.
Do you want me to try and find out where he is? Sometimes he answers me. [ Not that he keeps whole conversations going. Sometimes he just drops off completely. But at least he replies. ]
He's done worse. There has to be more to it than that.
[Ahahahaha...ha...]
If you can get him to answer, get some kind of location, I can get there. Hopefully before he runs off again. I'll snap his neck and tie him to a chair if I have to.
Of course it's amplified, along with everything else. There's a reason we can turn it off.
[Sometimes it becomes too much, or sometimes you become like Damon, who avoids and avoids and avoids as long as he can, pretends he doesn't care until sometimes he believes it.]
You know how many suicidal vampires we'd have out there if they couldn't? Not everyone is as well adjusted as I am. I mean, come on, look at Stefan.
We all do it at some point. It's only a matter of time.
[So optimistic. But this is Elena they're talking about. She's a vampire now. She'll kill, and someday all that killing will be too much. It's just a matter of why and when.]
It's a giant space ship. Other than that, I'm still not sure what the hell to think.
Then we'll help her. We can stop her, remind her that we should be feeling things. We're meant to.
I'd say you and me both but I have thoughts. I even work for a department now. The people are okay. I think I'm friends with Queen Elizabeth's daughter. And I don't think I've ever met someone so polite. I keep thinking I'm going to insult her accidentally.
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Date: 2014-05-12 12:44 am (UTC)[He's mostly just trying to forget about the whole thing, because it brings back memories of something that happened a long time ago that was much worse and went on for a lot longer.
So the topic of Stefan make it really easy to switch gears and hopefully steer the subject away from having to talk about it.]
If that's true, then he's supposed to be in full out revenge mode, which wasn't all that much better. I figured something like that might be up, if only because if he were completely off the rails, there'd be a trail of bodies by now. Instead I haven't even seen him.
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Date: 2014-05-12 12:47 am (UTC)I thought he was. We both were. But, these past two months Klaus hasn't given anybody a reason to get revenge. You haven't seen him once?
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Date: 2014-05-12 12:57 am (UTC)[Because this is Damon, and they're talking about his brother. Say what you want about him, but anyone who knew him? Who actually knew him? Knew damn well he'd be trying to find him and fix whatever stupid mess he'd gotten himself into, not matter how much he complained about it and pretended like it didn't bother him in the process.]
If I didn't know better, I'd guess I'm being deliberately avoided.
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Date: 2014-05-12 01:08 am (UTC)Do you want me to try and find out where he is? Sometimes he answers me. [ Not that he keeps whole conversations going. Sometimes he just drops off completely. But at least he replies. ]
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Date: 2014-05-12 01:23 am (UTC)[Ahahahaha...ha...]
If you can get him to answer, get some kind of location, I can get there. Hopefully before he runs off again. I'll snap his neck and tie him to a chair if I have to.
[Cuz this shit is getting old]
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Date: 2014-05-12 01:25 am (UTC)I'll try.
Speaking of keeping a low profile. Looks like Elena is. Have you talked to her since?
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Date: 2014-05-12 01:37 am (UTC)[About the things she did to rescue him. About Stefan still being gone.]
I assumed that she was with Blondie now that she's back.
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Date: 2014-05-12 01:45 am (UTC)She's not.
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Date: 2014-05-12 01:49 am (UTC)[Sometimes it becomes too much, or sometimes you become like Damon, who avoids and avoids and avoids as long as he can, pretends he doesn't care until sometimes he believes it.]
You know how many suicidal vampires we'd have out there if they couldn't? Not everyone is as well adjusted as I am. I mean, come on, look at Stefan.
[Ha ha ha ha...]
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Date: 2014-05-12 01:51 am (UTC)I can't. That's the problem.
[ Hardy har ]
Bad joke. So, what do you think of the Tranquility?
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Date: 2014-05-12 02:14 am (UTC)[So optimistic. But this is Elena they're talking about. She's a vampire now. She'll kill, and someday all that killing will be too much. It's just a matter of why and when.]
It's a giant space ship. Other than that, I'm still not sure what the hell to think.
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Date: 2014-05-12 07:02 am (UTC)I'd say you and me both but I have thoughts. I even work for a department now. The people are okay. I think I'm friends with Queen Elizabeth's daughter. And I don't think I've ever met someone so polite. I keep thinking I'm going to insult her accidentally.
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Date: 2014-05-15 03:39 am (UTC)If you figure out where Stefan is, let me know.
[Such a dick, Damon...]
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